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edit: just finished a meeting with my surgeon. I definitely need open heart, the rate of success is unknown, the repairment surgery is complicated and if it doesn't succeed I'll need a replacement which in itself is another set of problems. 0.5% chance of death, 5% chance of major complications, blah blah blah. With replacement, I literally only have two shitty choices: mechanical valve, which means I need to take a medication that i'd really not take for the rest of my life; or a biological valve (tissue valve) which needs to be replaced every 1-5 years because I'm too young and my body will reject it faster. Both choices suck. I have no id